April Full Moon- Sumerian vs Giger

This month's moon is in Libra and the spread is about relationships. 

(This seemed to ring more about relationship to myself than relationships with others)

Sumerian Oracle

1. How can I tend my relationships in a healthy way? Bašmu (protection)

His fire comes from within you, up out of your shoulders, and wraps behind your head like the great naga protectors like Vasuki. This is a protective shield that burns from within outwards. 

I often pray to this visage (Vasuki protecting Buddha, but sometimes speak to Bašmu instead of Vasuki) for protection of my family at temple; did so just this last week in fact. This could be viewed as "I heard you" or maybe "do this more." Hell maybe "defend yourself." 

2. What area in my life needs more love? Mušuššu (necrophilia)

This visage of her is vampirism through necrophilia. 

I haven't really fleshed out meanings for it as of yet, as she has a few vampirism forms for other vitae, but it's interesting "necrophilia" is suggesting that I need more love there. I don't really want to do the dirty with corpses. I wonder if this is "gain energy and love the dead." 

3. How can I bring more balance to my life right now? Girtablullȗ (scorpion/venom)

This manifestation of him grants the ability to shape shift into a venomous scorpion and use the astral venom to attack your enemy. 

I don't know that attacking people is how to bring balance, unless this is a defensive posture. My scorpion did just have children not too long ago and there has been a bit of a disconnect with us since, mommy brain hormones. Since this is a literal scorpion card and it has popped up to represent her before as my familiar protector, it could be more along the lines of a reminder to reconnect that familiar bond to calm her and help to bring myself back to balance. 

4. How can I create more peace in my life? Mušuššu (control the dead)

This form of her is dominion of the dead. I have left this straight forward thus far, haven't fleshed out a greater meaning yet. 

This could go one of two ways to create peace: keep the spirits on a leash to not bother my home or seek the dead to gain their alliance. Within this reading alone, previously there was a "dead love" card so "gaining alliance" would be applicable. But in a previous reading it said to cut ties and stop actively seeking ancestor allies for my sanity sake, so banishing bothersome spirits would be more in line. Then the above necrophilia would turn into vampirism off of death energy in a near malignant way. 

Giger Tarot

1. How can I tend my relationships in a healthy way? Lovers

As soon as the goal of you dreams appears within reach, the feeling overcomes you that you do actually not need it. Accordingly, the Lovers also indicate that you only achieve deep experiences if you can satisfy your own lack of inner completeness. What you are missing is something that you must turn into reality within yourself on your own.  

I have not finished my healing from past trauma and know that there is still a gaping wound in the family areas. I have been working hard trying to fill those wounds, but have found myself at a loss; almost like a perpetual hurt child. My fiance has continually had to be my father over my lover as of late. I'm trying to seek out ancestors or friends or filling the holes with other placating methods. When I fix those wounds, perhaps I'll feel that completeness. 

2. What area in my life needs more love? Alchemy

The world of harmony is a false ideal corresponding more to your inner expectation than reality. You are suppressing reality for your own wishful thinking. You have a strong aversion to confronting others, you would rather include them in images of your perception. Through complex evasive actions, you attempt to somehow reduce the impact of what you feel to be unbearable aggression from your surrounding world. 

Perhaps my coping mechanism that I developed to conquer my mental and emotional issues are not as healthy as I had thought they were. Or is this warning me that I'm in more danger of aggressive actions around me than I realize? Is my spiritual balance and trying to heal myself in the wrong time as war is coming to the country? A few ways this can go, esp with the other deck and previous readings I've had that warn of coming war.

3. How can I bring more balance to my life right now? The Tower 

Freedom to reconquer the repressed shadow areas. The invitation to reconcile your true goals with your repressed fears. Review old scars and release what is holding you back. 

Bringing this back around to the beginning of the reading and the other deck, releasing things that harm me in order to heal old wounds. 

4. How can I creat more peace in my life? The Hierophant

You may be refusing to allow your lover to penetrate your Inner Self. This allows you to unknowingly reflect back injuries to which you might have been subjected during childhood. This means that you are projecting your restrictive behavior onto others, which may only be meant to allow you to revive the part that was split off, the part that separates you from your feminity. 

Much like the previous cards, due to wounds I find myself going into a protective place especially when under duress. I close down to get things done despite my emotional feelings or how much I want to break down and lose it. I have been the strong warrior woman instead of the soft nurturing woman. In fact, the nurturing woman is alien to me.